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[13 Aug 2006|10:04pm] |
this time next week i will be in pittsburgh.
i move in a week from tomorrow.
am i ready? not sure.
i still need to buy a few things, and my laptop still has to arrive, but those aren't the things i'm worried about. aside from actually packing most of my life's belongings into a car, i'm not fretting about the physical aspect.
people have asked me if i think i'll get homesick. i tell them yes, i am fully expecting it, but i'm also expecting that i'll get over it.. not necessarily easily, but i will. i won't lie, it's scary to think that this is the last sunday i'll be spending at home - that every night this week will be the last monday or tuesday i'll spend here for a long time. i'm going to miss my family. i'm going to miss my friends. i'm going to miss my puppy! oh so much. and i'm going to miss the familiarity of life in caldwell/north caldwell.
now that that's out of the way..
i'm totally psyched. i'm pysched to meet ashley and stephanie (my roommates) and i'm psyched it to meet with my advisor to choose classes and plan my schedule. i can't wait to start playing in the orchestra and putting my dorm room together. i'm pysched to be living in PITTSBURGH - the city rated with the 2nd most beautiful skyline in the country (second only to nyc, of course). i'm pysched that i'll be just down the road from dave.. and i'm so happy we'll have each other out there for the times when we come to realize that college life isn't always one big party. yeah, i'm pretty darn excited.
it's all just one big adjustment.
so it's midnight now, i took a break from writing this to talk to dave and some other people.
something i've come to understand (not realize, because i knew it before) - but really understand - oprah's favorite definition of forgiveness. i forget who's responsible for it, but it's something like "letting go of the idea that the past can be any different." now, i personally think there's more to forgiveness than that, but that's definitely a big portion of it in my opinion... and i think i've finally come to understand why. obviously when it comes to certain situations i wish the past could be different.. but it can't, and i can either make a futile effort to wish it could, or i can throw my hands up in the air, say whatever, and move on. the hard part clearly lies in deciding whom to include in moving on, and the way in which they will be included, but i'm figuring it out. i guess the whole trust factor makes everything messy, but i've always been way too trusting of people, so i'll alter that only slightly. the other part though is that i keep feeling like i need another apology. and that's not right. i'm sure that's just a side effect of "getting over it" though.
i know that you probably have no clue what i'm referring to, but that's not really important. i'm gonna stop now.
it's good that i'm getting away. the new start is welcomed and will definitely be used wisely.
unfortunately i have work tomorrow. all day. 9-8ish. blah. and then the rest of the week = chaos.
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| biiiiig update. |
[21 Jul 2006|10:00pm] |
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Okay so here's the deal. I'm home this Friday evening - far too tired to go out - and I haven't updated in a while, so here I am.
What have I been up to.. let's see.
Work - mostly. Yes, I'm working at the chiropractor's office referred to in the previous entry. I like the job, but the doctor I'm working for is pretty much a micro-manager and totally anal.. though somehow I deal. The hours aren't too bad so I'm happy. I'm also learning a lot so that helps.
I haven't actually gotten my housing packet from Pitt in the mail yet, but I heard we could call and find out, so that's what I did and here's the verdict: I'm in Holland Hall and I have TWO - count them, one, TWO - roommates. Ashley and Stephanie. I was really taken aback for two reasons. First of all, I was expecting to be living in the Litchfield Towers, which is where a lot (if not most) of the freshmen live. And second of all I was expecting only a double, not a triple room. At first I wasn't sure how I felt about that ... and who knows, it may still turn out to be not so good, but as of right now I'm optimistic. It could be fun! And as a result we get a bigger room, 13' x 20'... which happen to be the exact dimensions of my sister's room.. so that's kinda cool. Of course with three beds, three dressers, and three desks I'm sure it will feel like a closet. Holland Hall is an all girls dorm and it isn't air-conditioned, but oh well. No smelly boys to worry about while I'm showering =P
I'm hoping to get the actual packet of info in the mail tomorrow because it would be helpful to know if they provide things like desklamps and chairs and such. They mailed them out Monday so it should be here right? Geez.
That's the other thing - buying dorm stuff = SO MUCH FUN! I got a pretty comforter and sheets and a cute blanket to go over the reversible side which is kinda plain.. and I got this awesome alarm clock that hooks up to mp3 players.. aaah its all so much fun =D
Oh yeah, I forgot to mention that I talked to Ashley (one of my roommates) online. She seems sooo sweet and so far we have a lot in common, so that's reassuring! I emailed Stephanie but she hasn't gotten back to me yet.
Hmmm what else. Well, up until last night I was all excited about going to college - and of course I still am - but before I was hardly worried about missing people/being upset. But last night a bunch of us went to dave's and we had such a good time, it was just so classic, and it brought all the mixed emotions back. Then this morning my mom made a good point. I was all "aww last night made me not wanna go to college so much.." and she was like "welll you could not go, but then all your friends would still go.." and it's such an obvious statement, but it seemed much more profound when she said it. Maybe it was just too early for me, but it's kinda reassuring to remember that we're all in the same boat.
Then there are the friends I haven't seen in ages. You know who you are! Slowly but surely I've been getting in touch with them and next week is going to be my big effort to hang out with all of them.. because time really is running out.
Ooo I didn't talk about my graduation party. It was tonssss of fun and I feel spoiled, but I guess it's the one big shindig I could have in my life haha my parents said now I have to elope. But anyway, the old man band played and there was dancing and it seemed most people had a good time. Unfortunately some couldn't make it, but I understand that stuff happens or whatever. And yeah now I have a bunch of gift cards to use and I bought 5 books at Barnes & Noble today and I'm in heaven.
I'm only halfway done with my thankyou cards though. I'm getting there!
Yesterday my mom and I went to set up a checking account and stuff and I now have a checkbook.. and I feel grown up. Soon I'll have an ATM card too and then I'll just feel like an old geezer!
I'm not sure what else there is to comment on... or at least that I feel like commenting on. Maybe there will be more to come later. We'll see.
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| Piece of mind. |
[13 Jun 2006|03:46pm] |
+ Graduation was lovely. My speech went well. People seemed to like it, and that's all I really cared about. Overall it's just cool to have graduated from high school.
+ Today is a beautiful day. I took my dog for a walk, read outside, washed my car, and have been thoroughly enjoying it.
+ Catching up with people is always a plus in my book. Connecting to people on new levels is also quite fun.
+ I am currently quite motivated to find some interesting things to do this summer. I've been wanting to get to a book store for a while because I can think of about 6 books I really wanna get my hands on.
+ Old man band gig #6 is Saturday, and it's fun to get paid to sing Sheryl Crowe, Mary Carpenter, Eagles, and various other fun tunes :)
- My senior recital is tomorrow and I still feel unprepared. Yeah, so I should be practicing now instead of complaining about it, but I just practiced 2 of the 4 pieces I'll be playing, and the Bach concerto is just so blah. I love the piece, but some parts are really difficult to make sound clear and pretty. It's also extremely hot in my room when I practice and sweat makes it hard to concentrate. It's gross, but true.
- Old man band practice for the gig Saturday is tonight. I was supposed to listen to One, by U2, and add some violin parts to it, but I haven't. Who knows what else I was supposed to do. It's hard to keep track of it all and quite frankly I don't feel like working on stuff outside of the 4 hour band practices we have.
- I applied for a job as a receptionist at a chiropractors office. I filled out the application, provided various references, went for 2 interviews (1 included a 35 minute 'evaluation' aka math skills, etc quiz). She said she'd call me Monday (aka yesterday). She didn't, but she called me today and instead of telling me whether or not I actually got the job, she asked if I could come in AGAIN "to talk about some things" on Thursday at 11. When I told my mom this, she said I should call her back and ask whether I could plan on staying to work, or what. I decided against that just cuz I don't wanna cause a rift or anything. I'm really ticked off though. Why can't she just give me a straightforward answer? She said I did fine on the "quiz".. and at the last interview she made it seem as if I'd get the job.. so what's the problem? I NEED TO START MAKING MONEY. PRONTO. blah.
- My room is a mess, but I have nowhere to put anything anymore. I don't know what to do with clothes that won't fit in my drawers, and all my binders/textbooks I want/need to keep. I dislike clutter, and need to do something about this soon.
- Dave and all them need to graduate really soon, because summer needs to get a move on.
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| Monotony. |
[06 Jun 2006|07:33pm] |
My days now consist of the following:
Eating.
Sleeping.
Showering.
Working on my speech.
Practicing.
Napping.
Reading.
Working on my speech.
Practicing.
Working on my speech.
Practicing.
::snore::
Oh, but yesterday I went to Dave's for a bit. And today I picked up my brother from school.. but that's pretty much it.
At least tomorrow will be slightly more interesting:
Meeting with Sister Fran @ 9:30 am (to go over my speech)
Job interview @ 12:45 pm.
Rehearsal for senior recital @ 2:30 pm.
Nothing particularly enthralling.. but at least I'll get out of the house.
Is it really only 7:45? It feels so much later. Maybe I'll take advantage of that and go to sleep early..
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| All the moaning half-tones, come summertime. |
[03 Jun 2006|05:45pm] |
I'm done with high school. Classes ended yesterday and I will never have another day of high school as long as I live. I like that. Was it bittersweet? Somewhat. I'm more relieved though, to tell you the truth.
After school was all a blur, however. I got my hair done for the JCHS prom and it came out terrible (of all days, right?) partially due to rushing and partially due to the humidity. That made me awfully nervous and frantic and I had to go back in my dress to fix it up.
Prom was fun though, despite it all. I honestly had a great time.
The subject of prom brings me to what I really feel I need to put into words somewhere.
I'm so done with trivial matters. Some may disagree, but I think I'm finally beginning to see the big picture in nearly all areas of life and that's both a good thing and a bad thing. With prom came a bunch of stupid arguments with my parents, "rational discussions", logical and illogical conclusions, and unfortunate disappointments. In all honesty though, I'm over it. I'm not down the shore with all of my friends today, but I don't care. Maybe I'll look back in 10 years and wish I had gone, but something tells me I won't.
Same thing goes for the Mount prom. The varying reactions I received when people found out I wouldn't be attending my own senior prom gave me some good food for thought. I got responses ranging from "oh my god are you kidding me? You're going to regret it!" and "Awww why nooottt?" to "You loser." and "Eh, no biggie."
That just proves you can't let other people's opinions influence you.. lol. Sure, if I had gone, all the reactions would've been something like "That's nice, have fun." But the truth is I didn't need the stress nor the money going out the window, and one prom is enough.
People will probably be/act sympathetic if they hear I actually went home at 3 am the night of prom and no, I didn't go down the shore the next day for various reasons.. and I hate that. I don't want or need sympathy. I had fun, and that's that. Sure, it would've been nice to have done something today with my friends, but honestly, it's not worth any pity that anyone feels necessary to dish out. I guess what I'm saying is that there are more important things that require sympathy and pity. End of story.
This brings me back to my point very nicely. While proms and high school memories are not trivial, much of the stress and stuff associated with them are.. and I believe I've finally resolved myself to disregard those aspects. No, I didn't HAVE to write this all out, but just being aware of it and putting it into words will force me to adhere to what I'm working towards. And that is doing what is best and most logical in the grand scheme of things.
Now I am hungry. I woke up at 2:15 and had a bowl of honey nut cheerios.. and it is now 6:08. That's actually not that much of a time difference, but I guess I'm hungry because I didn't eat very much yesterday.
I'm going to go eat my dinner in my pajamas. Yeah, I'm gross and haven't changed yet because I was too busy watching The Parent Trap on Disney and finishing Angela's Ashes (such a good book, by the way). Perhaps I'll change before I go downstairs.. just so I don't feel like a heathen (sp?)
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[16 May 2006|10:15pm] |
college? please?
i'm even willing to just skip over summer .. really! i am! as long as it can be august 21st, say, tomorrow?
i'm just anxious to move on.
change is my best friend.
it keeps life interesting.
i don't understand how people can stand to dislike change. i know why they usually don't like it, but it boggles my mind that such a thing is possible.
i need college life. period.
only 96 days, 9 hours, and 39 minutes left of life in jersey..
then... PITTSBURGH =)
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[29 Apr 2006|11:41pm] |
What do people assume when they first look at me?
Song: Quittin' Time
Artist: Mary Carpenter
Comment: People wanna break up with me when they see me? lol i dunno, thats what the songs about..
What will be a big challenge in life for me?
Song: Knockin' On Heaven's Door
Artist: U2, Bob Marley, etc.
Comment: I will/won't have trouble getting to heaven.. haha that's more the AFTER-life.
Am I a good boyfriend/girlfriend?
Song: Life After Death and Taxes
Artist: Relient K
Comment: "and this is how i choose to live.. as if i'm dropping off a cliff, knowing that you'll save me.. and after all the stupid things i did there's nothing left to forgive, cuz you already forgave me.." - quite applicable i think. i'm a pain in the ass. period. hah.
How will I die?
Song: This Time Around
Artist: Howie Day (not hanson! surprise..)
Comment: I'll die multiple times? damn.
Is someone trying to kill me?
Song: hahahaha "My girl's ex-boyfriend"
Artist: Relient K
Comment: well, maybe my BOY's ex-GIRLfriend is trying to kill me?
What should I do instead of this quiz?
Song: Collide
Artist: Howie Day
Comment: I should run into something instead of taking this. hahaha
What is a bad habit that I should try to stop?
Song: Top Gun Anthem
Artist: Harold Faltermeyer
Comment: this one's way too random to make a connection.
What's for dinner tonight?
Song: Romance for violin & orchestra.
Artist: Beethoven
Comment: clearly i had some LOVIN for dinner =P
How does the world see me?
Song: Break Myself
Artist: Something Corporate
Comment: Hmm, people think I'm willing to sacrifice myself. interesting.
Will I have a happy life?
Song: Into the Airwaves
Artist: Jacks Mannequin
Comment: If slipping through the airwaves is happy, then sure?
What do my friends really think of me?
Song: Calm Before the Storm
Artist: Fall Out Boy
Comment: "there's a song on the radio that says lets get this party started" .. not bad lol
Do people secretly lust after me?
Song: Can't stop
Artist: Hanson
Comment: hahah "can't stop thinkin about you, can't get you off my miiiind". i guess that's a yes? hahah
How can I make myself happy?
Song: Somewhere In Between
Artist: Lifehouse
Comment: I should be balanced :)
What should I do with my life?
Song: This Ride
Artist: The STarting Line
Comment: clearly I 'should hold on and take this ride, and set aside memories of all the times when I collide' <-- which according to this thing, i should be doing right now.. haha funny
Why should life be full of so much pain?
Song: Hollywood Died
Artist: Yellowcard
Comment: because without pain and drama, hollywood would not survive. [this thing is actually making some sense! haha]
How can I maximize my pleasure during sex?
Song: Crazy Beautiful
Artist: Hanson
Comment: This song is actually pretty sexual.. lol I guess I should just have sex with someone who is crazy beautiful?
Will I ever have children?
Song: I Won't Make You
Artist: Something Corporate
Comment: lmao, I guess that's a no.
Will I die happy?
Song: You Thought Wrong
Artist: Kelly Clarkson
Comment: damn, i guess not.. lol
What is some good advice for me?
Song: Come On
Artist: Ben Jelen
Comment: I guess I need "to feel the light inside me" lol
What is happiness?
Song: As You Sleep
Artist: Something Corporate
Comment: Clearly this thing is telling me to go to sleep..
What is my favourite fetish?
Song: Blow Out
Artist: Radiohead
Comment: oh boy, let's not go there. lol
How will I be remembered?
Song: One Ray of Sunlight
Artist: Phantom Planet
Comment: that's kind of nice.. hehe
How do I get more sex?
Song: Untitled
Artist: Finch
Comment: I guess I'll never know.. gasp.
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[29 Apr 2006|09:42am] |
What is wrong with me.
I think I'm gonna throw up.
But I can't even leave my room.
I wish I had just fallen back asleep.
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[17 Apr 2006|10:47pm] |
Alright alright alright..
I don't update.
I'm a bad LJ-er.
But now it's spring break! And I have time! [which I should be using to study history.. but naah]
So I gave my deposit to the University of Pittsburgh when I was there on April 7th for the Honors Day. I played for the orchestra conductor too, which was cool. He said I'm already in the orchestra based on what he heard, and also said he'd make room for me in his schedule to take private lessons for credit. I was gonna meet with a biology professor or advisor or something, but basically we had no time that day. I just can't wait to go to college. I'm psycheddd. And Dave is going to Duquesne, which he discovered is 2.9 miles from Pitt.. so umm yeah that's only about .6 of a mile farther away from each other than we are now, so that's way chill.
On Friday the old man band + alex played at Tierney's in Montclair. Yeah, that was Good Friday.. oh the irony. But nevertheless it was a fun time. I debuted the Alex Arndt version of "If It Makes You Happy" and apparently people have given it good reviews.. so I guess I'm pleased. I'm really gonna miss playing with the old men next year. I'll have to take Doug up on his offer to fly me back for a few gigs..
Hmm what else.. well I've decided I do believe in an afterlife.. so that's exciting.
I really don't know what else to write about. I come to the computer because I think I have all these profound thoughts that I want to reveal to the world (or at least this small circle of LJers) and then I sit down, realize they're not all that profound, and proceed to write about the little things in life. I guess that's not so bad though.
..except for now I'm here with nothing to write about!
oooo Dave just IMed me!
This is exciting because I haven't been on AIM in about 2 weeks, haha.
Genius7777: your
Genius7777: my
Genius7777: best friend
yeah, that's my bud right there =)
I'M BORED !
BLAH.
I want to go outside, but I guess that's kind of weird since it's 11 and there's really nothing to do outside at the moment.
Alright this is getting out of hand.. I'm clicking Update Journal now.
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| LIFE IS BRILLIANT. |
[06 Mar 2006|04:57pm] |
I GOT A SCHOLARSHIP FROM THE UNIVERSITY OF PITTSBURGH.
Finally! geez. I had to send them an email cuz my guidance counselor, history teacher, and I think something got screwed up somewhere along the line.. but the letter came in the mail today! AND IT'S JUST ABOUT ENOUGH MOOLAHHHH TOO ! aaaah
I'M SO HAPPY.
I think I'm going to Pitt, man! Woop Woop!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHhhhhhhh.
life is amazing =D
..if you haven't gathered :)
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[19 Feb 2006|10:55pm] |
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Alright, so it's been a while. I'm home relatively early from babysitting and don't wanna bother people who are probably out on this non-school-night .. so I might as well update the ol' LJ.
ummm so I'm 18? yeah. it's not all that special. at least not yet. *shrug* whatever.
around mid-January I was accepted at TCNJ. Earlier in the year it was definitely higher on my list, but I'm not sure at this point. I need to bust out a pros and cons list for each school and compare them all. Quite frankly I'm sick of the college thing, as most seniors are at this point I think.
BUT I JUST WANT TO FIND OUT IF PITTSBURGH IS GOING TO GIVE ME A SCHOLARSHIP.
Is that so much to ask? Why must they take so long "considering applications"?
No more about that.. ( for now )
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| boredom/not tired |
[29 Jan 2006|11:56pm] |
[ ] I have eaten more than 5 meals a day.
[ ] I have read a lot of books.
[x] I have run more than 2 miles without stopping.
[ ] I have been to Canada.
[x] I have been to Europe.
[x] I have watched cartoons for hours.
[x] I have tripped UP the stairs.
[ ] I have fallen down an entire flight of stairs.
[x] I have been snowboarding/skiing.
[x] I have played ping pong.
[ ] I have played beer pong.
[x] I have swam in the ocean.
[ ] I have been on a whale-watch.
[x] I have seen fireworks.
[x] I have seen a shooting star.
[x] I have seen a meteor shower
[ ] I have almost drowned.
[x] I have been so embarrassed I wanted to disappear.
[x] I have listened to one cd over & over & over again.
[x] I have had stitches.
[x] I have been on the honor roll.
[ ] I have had frostbite.
[ ] I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there.
[x] I have stayed up til 2 doing homework/projects.
[x] I have had a job before/currently have a job.
[x] I have been ice skating.
[x] I have been rollerblading.
[x] I have fallen flat on my face.
[x] I have tripped over my own two feet.
[ ] I have been in a fist fight.
[ ] I have played videogames for more than 3 hours straight.
[x] I have passed out from being drunk.
[x] I have watched the power rangers.
[x] I have/I do attend Church regularly.
[x] I have played truth or dare.
[x] I have already had my 16th birthday.
[x] I have already had my 17th birthday.
[ ] I've called someone stupid. And meant it.
[x] I've been in a verbal argument.
[x] I've cried in school.
[x] I've played basketball on a team
[ ] I've played baseball on a team.
[ ] I've played football on a team.
[x] I've played soccer on a team.
[ ] I've done cheerleading on a team.
[x] I've played softball on a team.
[ ] I've played tennis on a team.
[ ] I've been on a swim team.
[x] I've been on a track team.
[x] I've been swimming more than 20 times in my life.
[x - sort of] I've bungee jumped.
[x] I've climbed a rock wall.
[ ] I've lost more than $20.
[x] I've called myself an idiot.
[x] I've called someone else an idiot.
[x] I've cried myself to sleep.
[x] I've had pets.
[x] I've owned a spice girls cd.
[x] I've owned a britney spears cd.
[x] I've owned an N*Sync cd.
[x] I've owned a backstreet boys cd.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've mooned someone.
[ ] I've sworn at someone in authority.
[x] I've been in the newspaper.
[?] I've been on BENTV
[ ] I've been to Hawaii.
[x] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been on the other side of a waterfall.
[ ] I've watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies.
[ ] I've watched all of the Harry Potter movies.
[ ] I've watched all of the Rocky movies.
[x] I've watched the 3 stooges.
[x] I've watched "Newlyweds" Nick & Jessica.
[x] I've watched Looney Tunes.
[ ] I've been stuffed into a locker.
[x] I've been called a geek.
[x] I've dumped someone.
[x] I've been dumped.
[x] I've studied hard for a test and got a bad grade.
[x] I've not studied at all for a test and aced it.
[x] I've hugged my mom within in the past 24 hrs.
[ ] I've hugged my dad within the past 24 hours.
[x] I've met a celebrity/music artist.
[x] I've written poetry.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[x] I've been attracted to someone much older than me.
[x] I've been tickled till I've cried.
[x] I've tickled someone else until they cried.
[x] I've had/have siblings.
[x] I've been to a rock concert.
[x] I've listened to classical music and enjoyed it.
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've been picked last in gym class.
[ ] I've been picked first in gym class.
[x] I've been picked in that middle-range in gym class.
[x] I've cried in front of my friends.
[x] I've read a book longer than 1,000 pages.
[ ] I've played Halo 2.
[x] I've freaked out over a sports game.
[ ] I've been to Alaska.
[ ] I've been to China.
[ ] I've been to Spain.
[ ] I've been to Italy.
[x] I've had a fight with someone on AIM.
[x] I've had a fight with someone face-to-face.
[x] I've forgiven someone who has done something wrong to me.
[x] I've been forgiven.
[x] I've been in love.
[x] I've screamed at a scary movie.
[x] I've cried at a chick flick.
[ ] I've watched a lot of action movies.
[x] I've cried at a commercial.
[x] I've told someone to fuck off.
[x] I've screamed at the top of my lungs.
[ ] I've been to a rap concert.
[ ] I've been to a hip hop concert.
[x] I've lived in more than 2 houses.
[x] I've driven on the highway
[x] I've driven more than 40 miles in a day
[x] I've been in a car accident
[ ] I've done drugs.
[x] I've been home sick.
[x] I've thrown up
[ ] I've puked all over someone.
[x] I've been horseback riding.
[x] I've spoken my mind in public.
[x] I've proved someone wrong
[x] I've been proved wrong by someone.
[ ] I've broken a leg.
[ ] I've broken an arm.
[x] I've fallen off a swing.
[x] I've swung on a swing for more than 30 mins straight.
[x] I've watched Winnie the Pooh movies.
[ ] I've forgotten my backpack when I've gone to school.
[ ] I've lost my backpack.
[x] I've come close to dying.
[ ] I've seen someone die.
[x] I've known someone who has died.
[ ] I've wanted to be an actor/actress at some point.
[ ] I've done modeling.
[x] I've forgotten to brush my teeth some mornings.
[x] I've taken something/someone for granted.
[x] I've realized how good my life is.
[x] I've counted my blessings.
[x] I've been made fun of by classmates.
[x] I've made fun of a classmate.
[x] I've been asked on a date and said no.
[ ] I've asked someone on a date and been turned down.
[x] I've slapped someone in the face.
[x] I've been skateboarding.
[x] I've been backstabbed by someone I thought was a friend.
[x] I've lied to someone to their face.
[x] I've told a little white lie.
[x] I've taken a day off from school just so I don't go insane.
[ ] I've fainted.
[ ] I've blacked out.
[x] I've had an argument with someone about whether cheerleading is a sport or not.
[x] I've pushed someone into a pool.
[x] I've been pushed into a pool.
[ ] I've had/have a broken nose.
[ ] I've had a black eye.
[x] I've lost a tooth.
[x] I've chipped a tooth.
[x]I've been called an under achiever
[x] I've been called an over achiever
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| first entry of 2006 |
[03 Jan 2006|01:11pm] |
2006 started probably the best way it possibly could. It was definitely the best New Year's Eve to date, and I was fortunate enough to be able to spend it with some of the best people in the world. I love you guys<333
New Year's Day was nice as well. Solace played a show, opening for Adelphi at Futuresound, and whilst everyone was tired it was still a good show. I sang with them and could not hear myself at all, but if I could have heard myself, it would not have been a show at Futuresound.
Yesterday was Gus's birthday. The kid is 10 already, that scares the crap out of me. I'm not sure how my little brother got to be an entire decade old. It makes me feel extremely not young anymore and I'm not sure how I feel about that. But he had a nice birthday so that's cool.
I was on the phone with Dave last night til about 12:30 and I told him to pray for a snow day, and he was like "Yeah - never gonna happen." And to that I replied, "Yeah - I know, but I can hope." Nevertheless I went to sleep ready (albeit unwilling) to go to school when I woke up. Well come 6 am my mom walks into the room asking who we have to call on the phone chain.. cuz we have a snow day ! Needless to say I couldn't believe it, but I also couldn't find my phone chain. Amidst all the kitchen-redoing it must've gotten misplaced, so I called the person who called us back (turned out to be MaryKate) and she gave me Meagan's number. Then Meagan asked if I could give her the number she's supposed to call. I thought that was funny. I just gave her MaryKate's number, lol.
I had trouble falling back asleep though. I don't think I did until aruond 7:15, and then Dave texted me back saying he doesn't have a snow day.. bummer.
ANYWAY. Since I did all my homework yesterdayyy I can now straighten my room, which has a fresh new look for the new year - meaning furniture & posters are rearranged. still have my last (6th) hanson poster to put up, but that requires me to move a framed picture .. so that'll have to wait.
I also need to practice today. A lot. Yeah.
Oh and I just looked at all the papers on my desk, and was reminded of something pretty sweet. I got an invitation to Cambridge University's Pre-College program. They spitefully put the pricetag AFTER the juicy list of courses. Just to name a few: Parliamentary Law (with a private visit to Parliment; limited enrollment), Genes and Environment: What Makes a Genius? Constitutional Comparisons, DNA Fingerprinting, Superstrings: The Theory of Everything.
And that's only like, 1/6 of all they list. IT SOUNDS SO AMAZING. It also says: Please note: Drama, Hamlet, and Shakespeare courses will have a special workshop at London's Shakespeare's Globe Theatre.
Yeah, then it says the fee is $5,795.00, which includes trips to Shakespeare's birthplace and Stonehenge, and incredible stuff like that. You can even play in an orchestra while you're there!
Oh well.
I can dream.
BLAH. I just need to erase that from my mind.. because it will never happen.
Time to go distract myself. Have a nice day everyone =)
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| 2005 |
[31 Dec 2005|06:05pm] |
2005 was an incredible year. I'd have to say it's been one of the best to date :) I got my license, I'm in a wonderful relationship, I went to Germany, I got a new violin & a new teacher, I'm a senior, I GOT INTO COLLEGE, I started playing in a band, I medaled in the triple jump, and I made a bunch of awesome friends. It will be hard to beat, but I'm ready to try..
Happy New Year everyone!
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[27 Dec 2005|12:26am] |
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i confess that in 2005 i...
( ) stayed single
( ) got your first kiss
(x) kissed someone new
(x) made-out in/on a car
( ) kissed in the snow
(x) kissed in the rain
(x) fell in love
( ) had your heart broken
(x) broke someone else's heart
( ) had a stalker
(x) had a good relationship with someone
( ) got head
( ) smoked weed
( ) did drugs
( ) questioned your sexual orientation
( ) came out of the closet
( ) gotten pregnant
( ) gotten someone else pregnant
( ) had an abortion
( ) gotten married
( ) had a divorce
( ) had a gay marriage
( ) kissed someone of the same sex
(x) dated someone you'll never forget
(x) done something you've regretted
( ) lost your true love
( ) lost faith in love
(x) kissed under miseltoe
WORK/SCHOOL
( ) got a promotion
( ) got a pay raise
( ) changed jobs
( ) lost your job
( ) quit your job
( ) dated a co-worker
( ) dated your boss
( ) dated your boss' daughter/son
( ) got fired from your job
(x) got straight A's [yeaah, i'm a nerrd]
(x) met one teacher you really like
(x) met one teacher you really hated
(x) found the subject you love
( ) failed a class
( ) cut class
(x) got into a fight with a classmate
(x) did something you were proud of
(x) discovered a new talent
(x) gave the teachers a reason to teach [at least one of them told me so..]
(x) proved yourself an idiot
( ) embarassed yourself in front of the class
( ) fell in love with a teacher
( ) got lead in the school play
(x) made a varsity team
(x) were involved in something you'll never forget
OTHER
( ) painted a picture
(x) wrote a poem
(x) ran a mile
(x) listened to music you couldn't stand
( ) double-dipped
( ) skinny-dipped
(x) went to a sleepover
( ) went to camp
(x) threw a surprise party
(x) laughed till you cried
( ) laughed till you peed in your pants
(x) flirted shamelessly
(x) visited a foreign country
(x) visited a foreign state
( ) cooked a disasterous meal
( ) lost something important to you
(x) got a gift you adore
(x) realized something new about yourself
( ) went on a diet
( ) tried to gain weight
(x) dyed your hair
( ) came close to losing your life
( ) someone close to you died
(x) went to a party
(x) drank alcohol
(x) drank alchohol underage
(x) got drunk/tipsy
( ) got arrested
(x) read a great book
(x) saw a great movie
(x) saw a movie so scary that it made you cry
(xx) saw your favorite band/artist live
(x) saw someone famous in person
(x) did something you want to tell everyone
(xxxxxxxxx) enjoyed this year overall
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| time for a way-mushy-gushy journal entry |
[24 Dec 2005|12:01am] |
you feel like liberation
you give me new sensation
you show me what i need and
you are my life completed
can't stop, can't brake, who's driving
sometimes there's no denying
til today i feel i can't lose
i'm letting go of what i knew
well i want you, for always
i hear your name in every word i say
i'm a fool, and i don't care
i hear your name in every word i say
before you i was only
what i let control me
you are a revolution
against my own conclusions
til today, i feel i can't lose
i'm letting go of what i knew
well i want you, for always
i hear your name in every word i say
i'm a fool and i don't care
i hear your name in every word i say
siiiiigh. sometimes life is just so amazing<33
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| College Acceptance #2, et al |
[10 Dec 2005|11:17am] |
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I got into Rutgerrrrrrrrrs. They gave me a scholarship too.
I must say, the whole idea of scholarships really works. At first I was like .. mmmm I don't think I wanna go to Rutgers, but the scholarship money really makes you think twice. I'm still waiting to see if Pitt gives me any money though, because right now that's on the top o my list =)
( More rambling )
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[06 Dec 2005|06:01pm] |
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STOLEN
1) Was 2005 a good year for you?
i was just thinking about this yesterday, and yes, it was an awesome year <3
2) What was your favorite moment of the year?
there were so manyy.. i'd have to say the germany trip though, because it took me to the other side of the globe.
3) What was your least favorite moment of the year?
eek. i'm not allowed to say, but it was a scary situation.
4) Did you keep your new years resolution of 2005?
honestly i dont remember what it was, so i guess thats a negative lol
5) Did you breakup with anyone in 2005?
mmhm, but we're together again and it's just splendid :D i was stupid, what can i say..
6) Did you make any new friends in 2005?
yes!
7) Who are your favorite new friends?
GERMANY CREWWW woop woop
8) What was your favorite month of 2005?
july & august. hands down.
9) Did you travel outside of the US in 2005?
iceland, germany, austria.
10) How many different states did you travel to in 2005?
hmm.. pennsylvania, new york, delaware.. i think thats it.
11) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2005?
not close to me personally, but people close to me lost people close to them.. and that was hard.
12) Did you miss anybody in the past year?
mmhm.
13) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2005?
i'm not sure i remember the movies i saw..
14) What was your favorite song from 2005?
every word i say - hanson
15) What was your favorite album of 2005?
The Best of Hanson Live & Electric <333
16) How many concerts did you see in 2005?
3, i think. bamboozle, hanson in sayreville & hanson in philly.
17) Did you have a favorite concert in 2005?
both hanson concerts kicked butt.
18) did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2005?
i was in germany for 20 days.. enough said.
19) did you do a lot of drugs in 2005?
nah, i get high on life =P
20) How many people did you sleep with in 2005?
if by "sleep with" you mean in a totally non-sexual way, then quite a few.. considering the numerous 5-minute naps taken in various hotel rooms in germany.
21) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
not really, and if i did, then i don't remember it so it couldn't have been that terrible.
22) What was the biggest lie you told in 2005?
"how are you?" "good" [i left maxine's answer, because i believe it's true for me as well]
23) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2005?
probably when i told my parents i was one place & went another place, and then had to call them when my car wouldn't start at that other place -- that sucked big time.
24) Did you treat somebody badly in 2005?
i think i did, but hopefully they didn't take it as being all that bad.. i'm just paranoid sometimes.
25) Did somebody treat you badly in 2005?
kinda, but i'm over it.
26) How much money did you spend in 2005?
1 euro = 1.35 us dollars. i spent more than i had planned to, thats for sure.
27) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2005?
i don't remember, so like some of the others - it must not have been that bad.
28) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005, what would it be?
germany trip & certain days in july =)
29) What are your plans for 2006?
enjoy life & become a better person.. all together now - "awwww."
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